barokah, markonah, maimunah hahaha

Let me tell what just happened to us tonight, and that tittle, i just don't know what to write, therefore i wrote those funny names that we talked about (Sorry if yours one of them, no hard feelings please)

i looked horrible and pale wtf

this word is bla bla.....af hahaha

we shouted.......hem between fenny or biji hahaha i forgot.

vian smoked a lot

What a Saturday! Vian, Ardi and me, guess what! We studied at pim. But Fenny didn't join with us, even we've already invited her. We ate, chatted, jokes, made fun each other, met ex-senior, met Arief, laughed, took words photos (We shouted some words and portrait it at the same time and you know what kind of words? Yes dirty some hahaha) looked at tons of strangers there and tried to do what they did. Went to kansup, and Vian's time! Ardi just get a bit uncomfortable with the situation (everybody smoked, smelled like hell, lots of perfect strangers and perfectly hot argh!), did math exercise (yes i brought the paper, the pencil also), read civic notes and have tried to memorized them all.

Sort of ordinary Sat but we were happy and that all killed my little-bit-unsure. I and Vian totally sick of being single ck. He smoked a lot. Ardi was busy with his blackberry and couldn't stop messaging with Elisa, his girlfriend. And me, just kept busy daydream hihi. Well I have to go to bed, gotta go to church tomorrow morning hem -_-

need a doctor

Gee, what a day! final exam will be happening on next Monday, consequently everyone is totally busy to prepare everything. And I'm still having my homeworks done. well i am a little bit frightened about those fucking exams but i have to struggle and of course, pray a lot. I practice math as well as i can, as hard as i can. Hopefully all of my classmates will be up to the next grade amen.

I don't know how to tell my-little-bit-unsure. None of my friends understand how this feeling because they don't feel the same. You know, it is so scary to know your scores aren't good and some of my teachers said like "some of you can't be pass this grade". Oh gosh, everytime i hear that F-ing words, i could feel the hairs rise on the back of my neck. And everytime i try to tell anyone, they just easily say "oh come on, calm down, it's impossible if you don't pass this grade bla bla bla". It still doesn't work. However, i still expect to pass this grade. Arrrrr this is really stressing me out jhFHJASDBSAJBJHgdu&^$%$$#&%

donkeys

Today Peter and I just didn't know what to do. We ain't got nothing to play. And we just really boreeeed. I've begged Peter to accompany me to mall and buy some clothes but he completely rejected it. He prefers staying at home to going to mall. What a boring-boy!

Then I took my laptop and I got an idea to make a funny video to show to Nyosch. Because I know, he needs something amusing there. He told me that, his friend from German has left and that's horrible for him. Nyosch told me a secret between that Germany girl and himself hahaha he has never been that silly before. Therefore, i told him"you're in love, my brother" (oops) Well I've seen that girl, she is very beautiful and seems nice. How poor are you, cowboy!

I know it's really embarassing yet fascinating hahahahaha. Well, sorry Pete, I can't help myself not to publish this video hahahaha I really owe him an apology (he'llbreak my leg) Furthermore, I hope that one will works on you Nyosch! Cheer up! And just get on with any other beautiful girls. And Pete, I love you hahahaha

Rainbow

Last Wednesday I saw a rainbow. Oh-my-gosh it was really cute. Rainbow always makes me wonder how could it be? Yes it’s still a magical thing for me even there is a lot of explanations about rainbow. When mom took me to school, it has rained so the weather was a middle cold and when I was looking out of the sky, I just screamed “That’s a rainbooooow!” mom and Pete were shocked and they got mad at me hahaha. I couldn’t take my eyes away from that exclusive magical rainbow. Everybody knows it hardly comes.

How can I describe a rainbow? The blending cloud and sky, the softly faded essential red, blue, pink, green, purple, yellow. Uwaw unbelievable! It was like a cotton candy and I really want to eat it. Unfortunately I didn’t take the picture hem.

Pete and Ellen

Me and Peter were stressed because we are deeply missing our lovely cowboy, Nyosch. If you read this, please back home sooooooon. We are terribly miss you brother :) And don't forget to bring more Obama masks, grandpa took ours -_- (how cruel) and yeah we have tons of major gossips.

messy

Ugh, I got a bunch of stuff going on, some things I gotta do, assignments pending, bad scores at all of my chemical exams. everything got worse since.....I don't even know since when but it just horrible. I think I’m just weird, messy and it’s a bad combination. Actually I really scare about the final exam because I have never got anything right to science lessons, it's a bomb for me. I never want to be a doctor, scientist, professor, or any other kind of that sucking job. I don't even have taste in science. Well, my parents do! A few days ago, I said to my self "okay enough, that's all! Those entire chemical exams extremely drive me crazy! And I gotta do something, yes study hard. That's the only one way to solve my problem. I have to trough this all"

That entirely true. I have to pass this eleventh grade anyway, I don't want disappointing mom, I don't want embarrassing myself. And now I'm in my progress before my this late sober, I've never been study. All I do is play play and play, skip the class, sleep in the class, I was such an idiot. In chemical class, I always try to get the lesson as well as I could, I try not to yawning, chat with my friends, or cheat in exams. God, i really want to pass this 52.600 minutes in eleventh grade successfully amen.

And from now on, i will :

Organizing.......anything, even the smallest thing. I'll write it on a paper or I could write it in my cell phone.

Throw all of the laziness feeling. Like shout out loud to my self "Ellen come on, get up get up and finish those bull-whore-assignments"

No more coffee, I think that stuff makes me feel like an owl, spend hours to do useless things at the middle of night.

Do every assignments and homeworks as soon as I can, no more pausing them.

I will try to be on time at any sort of things.

Study harder!

Then surely I will get better at school or in my daily activities. There is some words that make me stronger :

happy birthday carissa

i attended carissa's birthday party about two weeks ago.i actually didn't want to come but mommy forced me. So i bought the present and finally came to her birthday. carissa looked fabulous that night. she has fuckin hot skinny body and her dress was cute, really :)

the party was fun. well, there was a band from that restaurant and after we had the meals, they sang a song "ular berbisa" by hello band, i and nita easily dance and followed them to sing and suddenly (i don't have a clue why they did this) they sang "menunggumu"or......hem something tacky tittle by ridho roma hahahahah it was damn funny to hear that kind of song. Dangdut is sooooo one thousand and six something.......isn't it?but dangdut is still the music of my country (yeaaa!)

and uh-huh it was cool to met niken and indira again, it's been a while that i haven't met them. especially niken i miss her a lot. she always be my frienemy i mean sometimes friend sometimes enemy :P