Am I?

You are Red Panther.

Who has pure and gentle atmosphere. You tend to give a vulnerable impression, and have a fairy like mischievousness. You can be temperamental and little bit selfish. You may be unable to find the objective of your life, and may take a long way round in finding it. Your attraction is the way in which you do not deceive your heart, and act accordingly to your feeling. If you try to handle many things at once, you will break up that energy, and therefore, you should stick to doing one thing at a time. If you can control yourself, then doing something adventurous is not a problem. You are passionate person. You have very high ideals, and this make you not see the reality. You tend to become a dreamy sort of person. You dislike being restricted, and try to carry out your life with natural sense of your own instinct, that including your likes and dislikes. You possess strong beliefs, and are very intelligent and hard working person. But when you lose interest, everything stops half way through, and nothing is accomplished. You should make yourself clear between ideals and reality. You are too smart enough to be satisfied with ordinary housework. You prefer to lead life free of responsibility. Nevertheless you will be obsessed with your children's education.

If your birthday is on the 9th day of the month.

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.

Your Love.

You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

How To Date a Pisces Male

If you are dating a Pisces male, it will be up to you to decide where to go, what to do, whose car to take. He likes music, alcohol, and strong-willed women. He will do whatever you want. He has an extremely creative side, which takes precedence over his mundane duties of the everyday work world. He could be happy being supported by you, because he would surrender all of himself to you and your causes. Pisces males are romantic, and hate to make decisions. He does not want to displease you in any way. He donates to every solicitor knocking at the door. Pisces males are not normally good money managers, therefore, you get to do this. He won't mind. He would give you every paycheck. He loves you when you are dreamy and romantic, with the candles lit and soft music. He will cook for you. He dresses nicely and won't embarrass you in public. If you want to marry this man, just take him home. He's yours. Pisces males can't bear divorce. Marriage-minded they are, so Pisces males function best with a partner.

Parents and teens

Conflicts between parents and teenagers are common, mainly because parents make assumptions about their teens that often do not prove true. Usually, when their teenagers have wild friends, parents immediately think that their teenager will act the same way. This assumption, though, doesn’t prove true. Of course, there are some teens whose are easily influenced by their friends, but there are many teens whose follow their parents’ guidelines and rules no matter what their friends do. Secondly, parents usually have problems with teens’ appearance. They think that there is a connection between the outfit and hairstyles that teens wear and the way these teens behave. Again, this assumption doesn’t prove true. There are many fine teenagers who have pink hair and who dress like rock stars. Parents may assume that they have all the answers to teens’ problems and that they know exactly what teens are going through because they were teenagers once. But this assumption also doesn’t always prove true. Parents forget that each generation of teenagers has different problems. Parents make these assumptions about their teens because they love them, care about them and worry about them. And teens give their parents plenty of things to worry about! But if these assumptions don’t help either, then what can? Parents and teens need to communicate better each other. Instead of shouting at their teens when they are worried about them, parents need to be open, accepting, and understanding. Teens, on the other hand, should not be afraid to talk to their parents. They need to approach their parents as the loving, caring people they are. After all, recent surveys indicate that many parents today are understanding, accepting, and yes even cool!

The summer

The summer I turned 17 and my whole life went spinning off into a whole new orbit. Met a stranger, dated, and surprisingly he is now my boyfriend. It's kind of a pretty cool thing to do anytime of the year. You know that feeling, while you're waiting by the phone, and then you hear the most beautiful words in every language.

Ever since I was in 12th grade, I don’t really think I got much of a future now. Get married, work some 9-to-5 shit job, then several years off...........just die? Pretty suck thing to do. I want something different, well everyone, I might add. I want to be like my mom. She is a boss-a very humble boss- a hard worker woman, yet a lovely mother. She always treats all of her workers well, like they are all her friends. I'm so proud of her.

I was going through some of the folders on my laptop, trying to organize things a bit then I found several photos of mine. Here they are.

half past four

I glanced at the clock and I just realized that it has already half past four in the morning. There is something bothering me so that I haven’t slept yet but fortunately my friend, Reza did either, he sort of got a little insomnia tonight. He called me then, and had a little conversation for a while.

There are so many things I’d really love to tell about things that happened toward me.

First of all, I’d love to tell about my birthday. I think those following pictures tell a lot about what happened on that day. Fenny (as my lovely twin) with Ardi, Vian, Aga and surprisingly-Arga came over to my house and threw some of awful stuffs to my face (oh come on, I terribly hate ketchup) It was so sweet of them. Glad to know that they care about me. That’s why I do really love them.

Secondly, it’s about my experience the very first time I went to a club. I'm seventeen and it's legal for me. I'm actually curious a lot about that place. Like what people do inside that noisy spot? What makes them hilarious being in a stuffy spot? Eirine and Elsha invited me once. I said that I’d really love to go with them. Even Vian, Ardi and Fenny didn’t allow me actually. They didn’t want me turn out to be wild, get drunk, smoking, and any other worry excuses. We went to Only One and surprisingly met Meidinda and both of her friends, Kiki and Cindy there. That Dj Winky-what a man!-was the special Dj that night. We had so much fun, anyway.

I and all of my classmates had a farewell party with Pak Numan whom is our ex-PE teacher a couple of weeks ago. We are all gonna miss you sir :) And welcome Pak Iwan as our new PE teacher.

Both of my dearest friends, who are Fenny and Vian, have a new boyfriend and girlfriend. Fenny now has Sunny as her boyfriend, and Vian with Sere. Congratulation for you guys :) How about my turn? Actually, I’m still waiting for the right guy.

Can't wait holiday

Oh holiday I'm coming......................

barokah, markonah, maimunah hahaha

Let me tell what just happened to us tonight, and that tittle, i just don't know what to write, therefore i wrote those funny names that we talked about (Sorry if yours one of them, no hard feelings please)

i looked horrible and pale wtf

this word is bla bla.....af hahaha

we shouted.......hem between fenny or biji hahaha i forgot.

vian smoked a lot

What a Saturday! Vian, Ardi and me, guess what! We studied at pim. But Fenny didn't join with us, even we've already invited her. We ate, chatted, jokes, made fun each other, met ex-senior, met Arief, laughed, took words photos (We shouted some words and portrait it at the same time and you know what kind of words? Yes dirty some hahaha) looked at tons of strangers there and tried to do what they did. Went to kansup, and Vian's time! Ardi just get a bit uncomfortable with the situation (everybody smoked, smelled like hell, lots of perfect strangers and perfectly hot argh!), did math exercise (yes i brought the paper, the pencil also), read civic notes and have tried to memorized them all.

Sort of ordinary Sat but we were happy and that all killed my little-bit-unsure. I and Vian totally sick of being single ck. He smoked a lot. Ardi was busy with his blackberry and couldn't stop messaging with Elisa, his girlfriend. And me, just kept busy daydream hihi. Well I have to go to bed, gotta go to church tomorrow morning hem -_-

need a doctor

Gee, what a day! final exam will be happening on next Monday, consequently everyone is totally busy to prepare everything. And I'm still having my homeworks done. well i am a little bit frightened about those fucking exams but i have to struggle and of course, pray a lot. I practice math as well as i can, as hard as i can. Hopefully all of my classmates will be up to the next grade amen.

I don't know how to tell my-little-bit-unsure. None of my friends understand how this feeling because they don't feel the same. You know, it is so scary to know your scores aren't good and some of my teachers said like "some of you can't be pass this grade". Oh gosh, everytime i hear that F-ing words, i could feel the hairs rise on the back of my neck. And everytime i try to tell anyone, they just easily say "oh come on, calm down, it's impossible if you don't pass this grade bla bla bla". It still doesn't work. However, i still expect to pass this grade. Arrrrr this is really stressing me out jhFHJASDBSAJBJHgdu&^$%$$#&%

donkeys

Today Peter and I just didn't know what to do. We ain't got nothing to play. And we just really boreeeed. I've begged Peter to accompany me to mall and buy some clothes but he completely rejected it. He prefers staying at home to going to mall. What a boring-boy!

Then I took my laptop and I got an idea to make a funny video to show to Nyosch. Because I know, he needs something amusing there. He told me that, his friend from German has left and that's horrible for him. Nyosch told me a secret between that Germany girl and himself hahaha he has never been that silly before. Therefore, i told him"you're in love, my brother" (oops) Well I've seen that girl, she is very beautiful and seems nice. How poor are you, cowboy!

I know it's really embarassing yet fascinating hahahahaha. Well, sorry Pete, I can't help myself not to publish this video hahahaha I really owe him an apology (he'llbreak my leg) Furthermore, I hope that one will works on you Nyosch! Cheer up! And just get on with any other beautiful girls. And Pete, I love you hahahaha

Rainbow

Last Wednesday I saw a rainbow. Oh-my-gosh it was really cute. Rainbow always makes me wonder how could it be? Yes it’s still a magical thing for me even there is a lot of explanations about rainbow. When mom took me to school, it has rained so the weather was a middle cold and when I was looking out of the sky, I just screamed “That’s a rainbooooow!” mom and Pete were shocked and they got mad at me hahaha. I couldn’t take my eyes away from that exclusive magical rainbow. Everybody knows it hardly comes.

How can I describe a rainbow? The blending cloud and sky, the softly faded essential red, blue, pink, green, purple, yellow. Uwaw unbelievable! It was like a cotton candy and I really want to eat it. Unfortunately I didn’t take the picture hem.

Pete and Ellen

Me and Peter were stressed because we are deeply missing our lovely cowboy, Nyosch. If you read this, please back home sooooooon. We are terribly miss you brother :) And don't forget to bring more Obama masks, grandpa took ours -_- (how cruel) and yeah we have tons of major gossips.

messy

Ugh, I got a bunch of stuff going on, some things I gotta do, assignments pending, bad scores at all of my chemical exams. everything got worse since.....I don't even know since when but it just horrible. I think I’m just weird, messy and it’s a bad combination. Actually I really scare about the final exam because I have never got anything right to science lessons, it's a bomb for me. I never want to be a doctor, scientist, professor, or any other kind of that sucking job. I don't even have taste in science. Well, my parents do! A few days ago, I said to my self "okay enough, that's all! Those entire chemical exams extremely drive me crazy! And I gotta do something, yes study hard. That's the only one way to solve my problem. I have to trough this all"

That entirely true. I have to pass this eleventh grade anyway, I don't want disappointing mom, I don't want embarrassing myself. And now I'm in my progress before my this late sober, I've never been study. All I do is play play and play, skip the class, sleep in the class, I was such an idiot. In chemical class, I always try to get the lesson as well as I could, I try not to yawning, chat with my friends, or cheat in exams. God, i really want to pass this 52.600 minutes in eleventh grade successfully amen.

And from now on, i will :

Organizing.......anything, even the smallest thing. I'll write it on a paper or I could write it in my cell phone.

Throw all of the laziness feeling. Like shout out loud to my self "Ellen come on, get up get up and finish those bull-whore-assignments"

No more coffee, I think that stuff makes me feel like an owl, spend hours to do useless things at the middle of night.

Do every assignments and homeworks as soon as I can, no more pausing them.

I will try to be on time at any sort of things.

Study harder!

Then surely I will get better at school or in my daily activities. There is some words that make me stronger :

happy birthday carissa

i attended carissa's birthday party about two weeks ago.i actually didn't want to come but mommy forced me. So i bought the present and finally came to her birthday. carissa looked fabulous that night. she has fuckin hot skinny body and her dress was cute, really :)

the party was fun. well, there was a band from that restaurant and after we had the meals, they sang a song "ular berbisa" by hello band, i and nita easily dance and followed them to sing and suddenly (i don't have a clue why they did this) they sang "menunggumu"or......hem something tacky tittle by ridho roma hahahahah it was damn funny to hear that kind of song. Dangdut is sooooo one thousand and six something.......isn't it?but dangdut is still the music of my country (yeaaa!)

and uh-huh it was cool to met niken and indira again, it's been a while that i haven't met them. especially niken i miss her a lot. she always be my frienemy i mean sometimes friend sometimes enemy :P

ordinary saturday

I had last Saturday night at Senayan City with my friends and we like fooled around. we turned on ST 12 songs on Aga's car, sang out loud and that was ridiculous. but you know i really had been stressing in school those days. i got in trouble for the most random things. which, by the way are the projects, the homework and the other shittier jobs from my teacher. and keep me pretty busy.so i really need refreshing day. And as always, Saturday night works. then we barely wanted to back home and surprisingly we met musa and icam when they talked with the people that we've both known well too, ah how small is this planet! so after we had an eenie minie conversation we moved to burger king and met dimsath, alif and friend, and bla bla bla.

we went to, ah somewhere, i forget but it's already close so we decided to go to Starbucks. so after that, we back home. in icam's car, musa kinda turned on a Spanish song, icam and musa easily did a very bad ass vibrating dance hahaha. i didn't even know what exactly they do bzzt. you know, they were so funny yet loving. how lucky to have them as my friends.

the runner up :)

Well, we are the runner up, yeah it’s kinda completely magical!

And thanks a heap for kak nungky-as our best mommy in dance :)

Ah ya, we finally agreed to use DOMINATION (which means DANCE OEL IN ACTION) as our name!

If you wonder which one is me, that one with the red circle he he pretty sexy, eh? ;P